Saturday, July 21, 2012

Miss You Daddy


You left us helpless and lonely in this selfish world without any warning. I had never ever imagined God would take you away from us so mercilessly. I had imagined you bidding me goodbye with teary eyes on my wedding night and later playing with my kids. I had never ever thought you would force me to bid you adieu forever.

How do you expect me to forget that fateful day ever in my life? When you were taken away from me forever for no mistake of yours. When you were taken away from me due to someone else's carelessness? How do I forgive that careless driver who took your life away? How will I ever be able to get over you and move on Daddy?

When I suffer with a headache, you were always ready with a disprin. Now my heart's heavy and it aches Dad. What medicine will you give me that will ease this pain? Will disprin work just like how it worked on my headache?

When you get Chicken home on a weekday, I would ask you why did you get Chicken today, lets eat on Sunday. You would answer, 'Agar main subah nahin utha toh. Aaj khaana ho toh aaj hi khaana chahiye. Kya pata main subah naa rahoon.' I laughed it off whenever you said that Daddy. But today I feel you were so right. You were fit and fine when you left home in the morning and never came back.

I took you for granted when you were alive. How I would fight with you when you would keep all the fans switched on for no reason. How I would scream at you when you fought with Mom for some vague reason. Whom should I scream at now? Who would deal with my tantrums now?

One thing that your demise had taught me Daddy is that life is uncertain and death is inevitable. Thinking what will happen tomorrow ruins our present and worrying about a problem takes away the moment's joy. You never know how and when death would come and take us away forever from our loved ones. Your death has taught me to cherish the current moment, love unconditionally and express it when the time is in your hands, and most importantly value people when they are alive because how much ever you want to value them later, they ain't alive to see it and feel happy about it.

P.S: Wish I could tell you Daddy how much I miss you.



  1. Awesome article Namrata...We know how much you might have loved your dad and might be missing him now... We can understand what's going through you....All we can say that just be brave and move on... We know it's not easy but we also know that you can do it....
    May God bless you and gives you all the courage to move on .....
    And we want to see happy face of Namrata Mahalingam ....

  2. Hi Namrata,
    I used to work in sms country with u for a few days. Read ur post. Am really sorry for the greatest loss. Am sure your dad would be watching you and protecting you every second from up above and provide you strength in his blessings. Be strong. Deepest condolences again. As for the driver he will rot in hell. Cheers, Soumya

  3. This post really made me feel sad... sad not just at your loss but also your words and the truth behind them. I too am guilty of not expressing myself to people who I care about, including my parents.. I worry now if its already too late with all the years gone by just accepting that this is how we are as a family.

  4. may he rest in peace forever... take care, continue to be strong

  5. On Saturday, one of my friend's husband died. It was her birthday, still not a year of wedding, they were childhood friends and she is six months pregnant. Someone's rash and drunken driving put an end to a fairy tale and that too horribly. Sorry, couldn't control my emotions.

    I know whatever vacuum is left can never be filled. May your father rest in peace. He must be proud of you Namrata.

  6. I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Your post was gut wrenching and it brought tears to my eyes. I have no words of consolation and I know that heaviness in your heart will not got away completely ever. The pain will lessen. Time heals everything...hang in there Namrata

  7. Namrata,
    Extremely sad to hear this. I can understand your pain as I too have gone through a situation where I lost my dad unexpectedly. I can see from your words that you loved him very much. It is very difficult to get out of mourning. However, please remember that your dad will also like you to achieve your dreams. Keep in mind that you need to live your today, as your dad used to explain. Who has seen tomorrow? We all need to act so that if today is our last day, then there won't be any regrets.

  8. Namrata,
    Feeling bad...after reading your post. R.I.P to your Dad! He'll always be around you. His love will always protect you. :)
    Life's so complicated. My life is also somewhat like yours.Come check out my know about all the miserable things happening with me in my life.

  9. R.I.P to your Dad. "When we lose a loved one to death we gain an Angel, A very partial Angel who will even fight with God for your welfare"... I believe this and I can say this because I too lost my Dad rather unexpectedly in 2011 and from then on my life has taken a turn for the better. He is always on my mind and seems to guide me...

    Nicely written Post Namrata..


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