Learning the hard way....

In the journey of life we may come across  few people who influence our life to a great extent and we can't help but thank them for doing so. Some incidents help us analyze good and bad and leave an impact on us permanently. I'd like to share one such incident that I can never erase from my memory on this Teacher's Day.

I was in my 7th standard when this incident took place. I was one of the most talkative students of my class and I also excelled in academics. I was a favorite to majority of my teachers (except Telugu) so I obviously thought that I am never at fault. One of my classmates (whom I thought as a good friend) always had a lot of cash with her (around 100 bucks which is a lot for a 7th class kid!) daily. On asking her, she used to tell me that her Mom gives her money daily to have snacks after school. I believed her all the time but still had a doubt as to how she can have money daily with her.

One day one of our classmates complained to our class teacher, Ms. Sumathy Ma'am, that 100 bucks from her school fees was missing. As a tradition, everyone's bags and pockets were checked and this girl (my so-called friend) had 100 Rupees with her. She told Sumathy Ma'am that her Mom had given her that money. Ma'am asked her to call her parents and prove her point. During our lunch break my so-called friend came up to me. She wanted me to tell Sumathy Ma'am (if she asks me) that she had shown me the money when we were on our way to school in the morning (which she din't) as she told our Ma'am that I knew she had money with her. She told me that she actually found the money on the road and she lied to our Ma'am that her Mom had given her. I told the same thing to our Ma'am ( a lie) as directed by my liar friend.

Back home, she told her Mom that she found the money on the road and her teacher suspects that she has actually robbed it. Her Mom, believing her, promised to see our teacher the next day.

The next day I din't go to school so I din't know what happened. The following day was Sunday so again a holiday. On Monday, during the lunch break, Sumathy Ma'am called me to the staff room. She asked me for the final time very firmly, looking into my eyes, if what ever I said was true or not. I couldn't speak! She understood I had lied and the next moment I felt a hard slap on my face! Tears welled in my eyes and I stood there dumbstruck! At that moment I realized what a loser I am! I apologized to her and assured her that never in my life will I support a liar. She made me realize that it was not my friend but it was me who was at a bigger fault as I supported a wrong thing despite knowing the truth.

On this Teacher's day, I would like to thank Sumathy Ma'am for showing me the consequences of supporting unethical things. Thanks a lot for that slap Ma'am! That slap had never let me do things against my conscience. Happy Teacher's Day Ma'am! :)

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The most beautiful gift!

He realized he's in love with me on August 22, 2010. To celebrate a year of being in love, he gave me the very gift that I always wanted!

The gift which he bought for me is cream colored, has soft fur, black nose and tiny eyes! She's a month old lab! :)

When I took her in my arms, my happiness knew no bounds! She licked me wherever she could and also peed on me! Naughty girl!!! All that she does the whole day is eat, shit and sleep!

I wanted to name her Ginger but on public demand named her Dusty instead. Well, that's a sweet name too I feel. You will be hearing a lot about her as she's right now the centre of my life.

She came home of August 22, 2011 and is totally feeling at home. Her favorite place to hide is behind the TV where no one can see her. Sometimes she doesn't come out unless you bribing her with food. The moment we take her for a walk in the colony, she attends the nature's call without any delay. She's not yet choosy about food as she eats anything that we feed her. She somehow doesn't drink water much but still manages to pee multiple times a day (I don't know how?). We have one stuffed cat and one stuffed dog at home. Those are her favorite toys! She licks, bites and fights them but those lifeless animal silently bear her harassment! :P I see that she totally enjoys every bit of it.

How does it feel to have a partner whose so much into you, making sure all your wishes come true? Great, isn't it? :)

From being "Single" to "in a relationship"

When I updated my FB status as committed, it said "Namrata went from being single to in a relationship". It seemed like just a statement at that moment but now it seems so true. That statement makes sense to me NOW as it indicates a transformation from being a careless girl to a woman whose got to be responsible.

I had always been an independent, reckless and a carefree girl who'd never thought that life is something which should be taken seriously. I had never considered anyone before taking any decision though I had taken suggestions from friends. But now, since there's someone whose concerned about my whereabouts, I feel important, loved, cared and above all answerable! ;)

Being in a relationship brings with it a lot of changes. Good and bad. When I say bad, it demands few changes which I dislike and I am not keen on but which are needed. When I say good, it means I feel special and taken care of and also responsible. I feel as if all my problems which I thought are too big for me to handle are actually so tiny to even be considered. When I see all my problems being solved by just talking to him I can't help but feel so great for him being so matured.

This change is something that even he's experiencing. From being on his own to dealing with my CID questions, must be a tough ride for him :P

The transformation from being single to now being committed has been a journey (and will continue). Whether being single or committed, it's happiness we all crave for. Some achieve it through singleton (atleast they claim so) and some from being loved. For me, it's the latter! :)

Photograph Courtesy: My phone's camera ;)

Re-Union

Tears welled in my eyes as I looked into his. There was sheer silence. I knew that I had screwed up this time. I knew things will never be the same again between us. In a fraction of second, I felt my whole world crashing as I saw him leave. "He wasn't gonna come back", I thought. He did not turn to check if I am fine. "Why would he?".

I froze at my place as he disappeared from my sight. I couldn't come out of the shock that he is gone. I felt as if someone had pierced my heart with a sharp object and left a permanent hole in it. The hole seemed to deepen with every passing second. I walked for a good long distance lost in thoughts of my own. Every moment we'd spent together was still clear in my head. Out first meet, our first date, our first kiss...

Our first meeting was a very brief one. It wasn't love at first sight for him neither for me. Infact I din't remember even seeing him but he did. He'd come for an interview at the company I was working for. I was attending a phone call while he was sitting in the sofa, waiting for his turn and trying to pass time by looking around. It was a direct scene from a Hindi movie. I had my hair open (like always) so I tucked my hair behind my ear to prevent it from falling on my face turning to his side. We had an eye contact (which I could never recall) which lasted just for few seconds. That was our first meeting. And then as the days went by, we became friends and much more after a while.

But today it was different. I was alone. I was walking the streets all alone seeing him in my head but my moist eyes weren't letting a clear view of him. I hated that. I went home and sat in my room watching a slideshow of his pictures on my laptop, listening to "What hurts the most" by Rascal Flatts, playing it again and again. My Mom knocked my room but I din't wanted anyone to disturb my sad moment so I din't wanted to open the door. I heard someone banging the door again and knew it was my Mom again. But, I was wrong. It was him!

I opened the door and let him in. He looked miserable and in a deeper agony than I was. His eyes were red and he din't smile. We stared at each other without speaking losing track of time. The only sound that I heard was that of our breathing. He finally came close to me, took my hands in his and said just three words which were enough to break all silence between us. He said, "I need you". That's it! I lost control! I hugged him and cried like a small baby letting all of those mis-understandings flow through my tears! :)


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(The above post is a work of fiction. Just parts of it is inspired from my life.)

In Love - Again! :)

Summers have drained me completely over the past few months! I was on my way back home on a hot evening, the time being around 7 PM. The only moisture I felt was that of my sweat. No sign of breeze anywhere. Suddenly the weather seemed to change! Black clouds began to cover the sky as I walked. I felt a drop of water kiss my skin which I wasn't sure where it came from. I looked up at the sky and a curve struck my face. It wasn't just one drop of water! It was rain!


I realised how much I wanted this rain! How much I wanted to get drenched. I stood in my place for a while feeling the rain all over my body. I had the same feeling which I get when I have the first bite of my favorite chocolate icecream! I'd never been fond of summers somehow. And it's not even that I loved rains a lot but the first rain is something I fall in love with every year all over again!

No more hot, sweaty days! No more thirsty hours! No more fear of sun burns!


Hot mirchi-bajjis, hot cuppa coffee & soft music! Terrific combination! I can cuddle up in my bed now with my blanket & a book to read. I can get up late during holidays as the Sun is not gonna disturb my peaceful sleep!



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My biggest fear...

What's the biggest fear that I have?

Is it being attacked by a million cockroaches? Or is it death?

Do I fear that I would run out of money someday? Or is it losing my job?

Is not getting what i want my worst nightmare? Or would I rule that out as not an important thing on my list?

A lot of thought-process has lead me into a conclusion that the fear of being left alone in this selfish world is the most freaking thing! Yes! That's my worst nightmare! That's probably anyone's worst fear!

What would I do without all of those people who matter to me? Without my family, my friends, and most of all, without HIM?

We all run after fame, recognition & money but overlook simple things. The bigger things in life give us happiness but only our loved ones give us satisfaction! Peace of mind is what we all need. I find that through the unconditional love & support of my loved ones. That's the only thing I want & nothing else!

This post is dedicated to my loved ones who had been with me in my best & worst times in the most selfless way! Love you all!!! Ummaah!

First Impression is supposedly the Best Impression! Really?

We meet so many people daily. We like few people in the first meeting & few people... hmmm... we never like them. They say that first impression is the best impression but is that so always?

Sometimes it so happens that we might have a certain impression (here negative) about a person which eventually turns out to be wrong with time. But do we actually give that time to someone is a question we need to ask ourselves.

Most of the time we judge someone by the kind of people they talk to or the kind of clothes they wear. If we dislike someone, then we also dislike the person whose in close company with him/her. We all claim that we like criticism. But deep down no one likes it. We hate being judged but we get immense pleasure in judging people.

Who are we to judge someone? Everyone has got the right to be the way they want to be. The clothes or company do not define a person. It's the character & the attitude towards life which defines what we are. We should give little time to know a person's character before forming our opinion on someone. We should bear in mind that someone else might have formed an opinion about us knowing nothing at all!

I think of you!

When I open my eyes in the morning & look at the bright day smiling at me, I think of you!
When I suddenly hear a romantic song being played somewhere, I think of you!
When my thoughts take me to my past & I remember all the pain I'd been through, I think of you!
When I do something substantial & feel content with myself, I think of you!
When I am confused as to which way I should be going, I think of you!
When I pass by the places where we hang out together, I think of you!
When nothing in my life seems to be going right, I think of you!
When everything in my life goes perfectly well as planned, I think of you!
Sometimes, even when I am surrounded with a lot of people, I think of you!

You are the first thing on my mind when I get up & the last thing when I go to bed!

Above all, I think of you the most when I lay alone at night & think of all the beautiful memories we'd together!

In simple words, you run in my mind like blood runs in my body!

P.S: I love thinking about you since it keeps me close to you!:)

Papers, Papers & Papers!!!!

When working in Ameerpet, everyday I used to leave the office at around 6.15 & walk my way till the Ameerpet bus stop with my friends to catch route number 10 bus to reach Patny. The Ameerpet road is always crowded as it has got a lot of institutes & offices. I must tell you that it is the most tacky road with papers littered carelessly every where. The reason for this mess are the institutes who believe in advertising though pamphlets. There are numerous pamphlets distributed to everyone passing by irrespective of whether they are interested or not. At the end of the day, we walk amidst a carpet of pamphlets! And the day it rains, you can't even put your foot as it is so dirty!

We all talk so much about Global Warming & deforestation but little do we realize the kind of mess we are surrounded with. We all should stop encouraging these pamphlets so that we pass a message to these institutes that we ain't interested in their so-called courses. I don't know when these people will realize that paper should be used if necessary but not just because it's readily available!

Let's do our part in safeguarding the environment by:

Printing emails only when necessary.
Switching off the monitors when we leave our desk.
Ensuring the lights are switched off when we leave our home.

P.S: It takes around 24 trees to produce 1 ton of office paper!

A sense of Satisfaction... :)

You guys must have noticed a pattern in my writing. Be it from having a breakup to finding true love, I had been through a lot of ups & downs. Life right now is really different from the way it was earlier. I feel content with my life, now that there's someone to take care of me! :)

I always thought that God is being unfair with me in terms of my personal life. Though I had been surrounded by loads of people, deep down in my heart I was lonely which I refused to accept. I vented all my frustration (loneliness) by writing which gave me a sigh of relief. And here I am again writing but this time to share my happiness! :)

I can fill pages talking about my guy without being tired. He's got a heart of gold which I have occupied completely (Wink)! He's sensitive but practical, can do anything to keep me happy! I never feel that my individuality is being lost with him. I would be lying if I say he isn't possessive at all but he surely gives me my share of space! He irritates me when it comes to my professional life as he's aware about my levels of maturity (Or shall I say immaturity!). The best part of our relationship is we have been friends before falling in love which is the reason we be ourselves with each other!

I am not sure where my life will take me but one thing's for sure, he's gonna be there with me in my journey of life as a guide, mentor, friend & above all as my Life Partner! :)

I always fantasized my life partner in a certain way. I never thought I would meet the man of my dreams! But it happened!!! They say "Better late than never!!!" So true!!!